Sunday, May 3, 2009
FREEDOM
Then again, it is rather nice to not be in China, even if it is only for 63 hours, and even if i'm still within sight of the border.
Something about getting out of the middle kingdom just makes my day a little bit better.
<3
Jess
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Oh dear god.
Apart from that, I know there are those of you who want to send me things. Cool things. Things that I'd like. Now you can do that!
You can cut and paste this address, I'd use both the Chinese and the English versions.
JessieBrockl
北京市东城区八宝坑胡同45号10007
Jessie Brockl
No. 45 BaBaoKeng Hutong,
DongCheng District, Beijing 10007
People's Republic of China
I'm waiting.
love!
Jessie
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Lovely.
Andrea Gibson has one of the most impactful voices I think I've heard. Full, strong, and wielded like the weapon a voice with passion and intellect to back it can and should be. She's amazing, and seeing her live at Girlfest Honolulu is something I get all misty just thinking about. I can't even listen to her recordings without getting all emotional- and I can't watch her perform without getting all kinds of conflicting things- joy at seeing her, extreme unprecedented attraction, solidarity, pride, horrible horrible unprecedented attraction, and all of it mixed up with a dab of unrequited love. She's pertinent, she's throbbing with life, and she's one of our strongest voices continuing to spit reactionary truth in the faces of the establishment and the plastic wrapped completely irrelevant entertainment of today. Take a gander (please, leave the geese.) This is what i saw live.
EDIT: Here is where I was going to put a video from youtube of Andrea preforming her piece "For Eli". Unfortunately, China doesn't want to let me access youtube at the moment so I can't. Please go look it up yourself, if the government of the country you are accessing the internet from is lax with these kinds of allowances. Seriously. Do it.
(after watching -isn't she unwholesome amounts of attractive? violently, beautifully, gorgeous?)
<3
Friday, March 20, 2009
Nine on a Friday.
Just wanted to drop in and say hello, to all of you. should be more interesting things coming in the next day or so- unfortunately, the intertubes are still out of commission at the hutong and as such i've got to drag my sorry self to the cafe and pay for a cup of tea to get some internet access.
most of you know how little i like spending money for no reason, and few things makes less sense than paying through the nose for a single cup of tea, when an entire box of tea bags costs so little. i am loathe to head over there and pay when i could just lounge on the lovely roof of my gorgeous hutong in the sun. did i mention how much its warmed up? its almost bordering on tolerable. imagine that.
actually, the amount that its warmed up in the past week alone freaks me out. from two sweaters and a coat to a dress (short short dress- i know, you were lonely. you thought youd never come out of the closet. you longed for the light of day, you pined for the feel of flesh beneath your figure...pine no more! SPRING HAS COMETH) and some tights. though im enjoying it, really i am (the underwear dance party in the courtyard is proof. ask the roommates.)...its still rather odd.
much love.
jessie
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Sigh.
In the hotel room that i split with my student's assistant, I'm on the computer playing a song that is nothing short of a chunk of my high school nights grilled to perfection, sitting on a plate in front of me and wafting nostalgic fumes into my face. Hearing the song, she starts a conversation. It goes like this:
"You Happy?"
"Happy? No."
"Homesick? What do you miss?"
"Home. Lover. My Life."
"What can you do?"
"Nothing. Go home."
"My homesickness is worse than yours. I have no freedom."
"..."
The worst part is, it's true. She doesnt. I can up and go at any time if things get too bad and I know i can afford a plane ticket home and still have a cushion of seed money to start over. I can't bitch about anything, because the minute i start i need to pause and remember- homegirl who works more hours doing more stuff than i do makes a tenth of my paycheck. A tenth, not exaggerating at all. And she makes double what everyone else working around me makes. This is not something that I am proud of, or that I agree with. There are a lot of things that I want to say about those two salary related facts, but theyre all going to wait till next time.
Cause Jessie is Le Tired. Sorry for the lack of analysis and comment, the mini-conversation just struck me so deeply that I felt the need to share it.
Love you
Jess
Monday, February 2, 2009
lovely day
the weather, beauteous though it may be, is apparently not condusive for shooting a movie. the fog won't lift off the mountains and the droplets won't stay in the clouds. i mean, i love it, but the film crew is less thrilled. i'm still trying to book my flight to hong kong, which is proving to be difficult. we're in a rather secluded area in southern china and apparently the only two airports with international flights are equidistant from our current location- about a three hour drive. and, with the rain, no one is sure if we're going to stay and wait it out or opt to move to the next location (a beach!) and then return here in a week or so to wrap up. so i don't know where we'll be and which airport to fly out of. but enough of my griping, cause i'm sure i'll figure it out. or, i might get kicked out of country and banned from returning for overstaying my visa. those are both options.
what else? like i said, when i get to hong kong i'll send out a few more emails and replies- with 12-18 hour days it's a little hard to drag myself to the business center to sit in front of the monitor. lately it's sleep vs. send emails, run vs. send emails, or buy fruit vs. send emails. i think you guys can all guess what wins out in most of those battles. and if you cant, you can use your collective inboxs as a clue.
unless youre my mom. she still gets emails. right mom? right.
anywho, its beautiful outside, so im going to go frolic next to the lake in the fog. fog fog. i love fog. mist! mist is better. this is mist, not fog. mmm, mist.
love
jessie
Friday, January 30, 2009
yawn!
So, I've been very very internet-less in Southern China for the better part of the last week. The period of blog-silence that precedes that week I have no excuse for, except to say that i was reveling in being at home in Beijing and as such was loathe to surrender my time to sitting in front of the little glowing square that is my laptop monitor.
This is going to be a very short post, cause its cold in this computer room the hotel is lending me and i need to go get some sleep- running a couple miles everyday is making me love and cherish sleep in ways that, well, i never thought i could. this coming from the girl who was, as an infant, infamous for catnaps is quite the statement.
i love you all and when i hit hong kong next week i will not only post, but send emails and reply to things on facebook. imagine that!
love
jessie
Sunday, January 25, 2009
新年快乐!
And this is stuck in my head:
Love you guys, more posts when i'm in Southern China. I leave tomorrow!
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Friday, January 16, 2009
It's 11pm and...
Sometimes the nightsky in Beijing is red. Dull, post-apocaplyptic red. It's really rather unsettling.
Also, it's so cold here that in preparation for the vanilla ice cream i plan on making tomorrow, I put a banana outside to freeze. Outside. To freeze.
Sigh. What else is going on in this Great Big Communist Capitalist Capital?
A lot of interesting things. Spring Festival is coming (Chinese New Year, that is), and the police came by yesterday to tell us to make sure and lock up because it's the largest theivery holiday in China. Also, little stickers warning not to let off firecrackers in the hutong went up a few days ago. I'm still spending every other day ensconced in CCTV headquarters, watching all kinds of super fantastic preparations and rehearsals for Spring Festival Extravanganza (SFE), watching, that is, through the omnipresent haze of cigarette smoke. Gross.
I'm going to go curl up in bed. Sorry this is so short and lacking in real content, but i'm exhausted.
<3
jess
Monday, January 12, 2009
Ache
This means that I have more access to the intertubes, but also that I have more things in my schedule than work/sleep/work/sleep/work/sleep/shower. Which means I have more time to post, but less will to. Hmm.
Since I'm at the end of a second day of detoxing, I'm sleepy and a little crabby. To cut through this, I've put up some pictures for you all to look at of the Hutong and some roomies. Huzzah!
OMG PICS
lovelove
jess
Friday, January 2, 2009
Brave New World
On my days off, I like to go on long walks, I like to write, and I like to eat only fruit. On days that i do work, I work long hours and wrap up the day with only enough productive energy for personal reflection. Today I had the day off, and I took the opportunity to pull together a few things that I’ve been ruminating on the past week or so. It is thusly that you find the rash of postings below. I’m starting it all with this little disclaimer because I know that I do not usually talk about my veganism (even though it is right up there in the address to my blog). I have been writing this blog mostly about my travels in China and my feelings/reactions to what I see here. That is going to start altering. I am vegan, I am proud, and I am going to start letting the combination of these two things color more of my interactions with the world. If one person reads this and is interested in these things even the smallest way, that’s enough for me. In addition to my veganism, my liberal socialist queer change-worshiping philosophies might make an appearance or two. Lovely.
Onward ho, I suppose.
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Sleepy...
In other news...what is my other news? Not much. Stuck down here in Southern China through the holidays. I never thought i'd miss Christmas, but I do. I enjoy being around my friends and celebrating the relationships that i've cultivated in all realms of my life. I enjoy cooking and especially baking, neither of which I'll get to do down here in my swank Sheraton hotel room. Swank as it may be, I'd much rather trade it in for the cold and rickety existence that is hutong life. Sigh. Hopefully I'll get flown home sometime around the new year, if only for a day or two...
Since i have no outlet down here in the business center (my room has no internet, so the lobby it is for me), my low battery life is telling me i have to go. Emails would be appreciated, since I can't get to a fast enough internet connection to call anyone at all, and the solitary Southern Chinese lifestyle I am becoming accustomed to could use a little breaking up by friends and family.
Love you guys
Jessie
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
What? Snow? No way.
Hello to everyone.
I know that its been a few days since i last hopped over here and posted, but now that i'm well I've been rather busy. You know, working, trying to find jobs, trying not to freeze, trying not to run away to the airport and fly myself on home...the usual.
Beijing is becoming progressively colder, and as such, progressively greyer. I'm knackered tonight from running around teaching and shopping for all the grains and seeds that i require for happy living. It's lucky for me I live a five minute walk from the largest Lama temple in Beijing, so in addition to living near lots of really interesting buddhist shops, I happen to live near one of the few purveyors of organic grains and legumes. It's an adorable little shop, lined with bins and jars of grains, flours, seeds, and beans- when I get my camera I'll be sure to snap some pictures. It's always bustling and has a small bakery in the back, a bakery whose goods i hope to sample. In addition to the Buddhist shops and organic grain store I also live a stones throw from quite a few vegetarian restuarants- again, thank you to the Lama temple. In case youre wondering what it looks like, the pictures flashing on the side of this page were taken there.
I'd like to type up a little more, but the Norwegian is leaving tomorrow to go travel, so we're all going out to dinner. That, and the pipes in our kitchen have cracked and there is water spraying all over everything. I think I might need to help with that...as its supposed to snow tomorrow, and we dont want to start running a small ice skating rink, we need to water to stop gushing onto our frigid floor. Sigh.
love&luz
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Oh, no.
My first "Merry Christmas" sign in Beijing. It was disturbing. It was 12 feet high. It was glowing.
I'm not sure I can handle this.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Excelllent
I'm sorry i haven't been posting too much of late, but ive been running around town trying to get work and trying not to freeze and trying not to be sick.
So far only one of those has been accomplished, and it's only been kind of sort of accomplished halfway. I've got a little work but not a whole lot- thats something that will hopefully change soon enough. I've definately frozen many times over, and only truly manage to defrost moments before i am forced to re-submerge myself in the icy outdoors that currently compromise all of northern china. as for the sicksies part, well, i'm not as sick as i could be! hurrah! i'm going to keep saying that until the day i get another kidney stone. to me that will hold as the epitome of horrid, horrid illness.
on the upside i'm having a swanky coat tailor made for me in a lovely dark, dark blue. it's going to come down past my knees and once i have it HOHO! look out world. Jessie just might be warm. All i need now are gloves, socks, and boots. Yahtzee!
So as much as i love you all and miss you, im going to lay down now and go to sleep so that i can work on eradicting the last of my jetlag and attempt to overcome my illness before it gets too nasty.
love&luz
jessie
Friday, November 7, 2008
The jing.
Lets start off by giving a huge round of applause to Korean Air, which provided me with the most enjoyable 10 hour flight i've ever had. Not only did i have a row of 5 seats all to myself (ALL TO MYSELF), but i had two correctly vegan meals, a warm and large blanket, headphones provided, a travel kit including thick woolen socks, a toothbrush, and a mentholated (MENTHOLATED) eyemask graciously given me, free alcohol (only some wine to help me sleep, nothing like what went down that first flight to china...) but the bathroom was huge and included a full length mirror. Yay for Korean Air.
The layover in Seoul was grey and uneventful. I was accosted by some Christians in the Seoul airport, which was a little alarming. Besides that, the airport was much like both Beijing and Narita. More like Narita, cause the new portion of the Beijing airport is so large and cold feeling, but both Seoul and Narita feel cozier and have more bustling shops.
Getting to Beijing I took the new subway train from the airport into the city (so convenient) and then with a few transfers was being met by Scottie at the trainstation. We navigated through some seriously serious hutongs, and then found ourselves at his little home away from home. It's so beautiful. You walk into a courtyard through red double doors (which are standard in Beijing hutongs) in the middle of which grows and immense oak tree. The rooms all radiate off the courtyard, including a kitchen and two bathrooms. Theres Wifi. Theres heating. Theres lovely peace and quiet in the middle of Beijing. It's beautiful. I'm so pleased- theres even a rooftop patio!
Sigh. When i'm feeling more up to it i'll describe how the walls in the courtyard are covered in Indian-esque murals of various Goddesses and the rooms are filled with antique wood furniture (the owner, apparently, used to run an antique shop). I can't imagine a more lovely place to be staying.
Well, maybe if i could ship a few certain someones over from Hawaii, and set up a similar flat for my folks across the way, then i could. But then i wouldnt be making new lifelong friends and i'd be mired in the comfort of familiarity, so i suppose this is better anyway :)
miss you guys and love you
jess
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Stereo
anyway, this little quickie is coming at you directly from the inner sanctum of an overly air conditioned (life is better refrigerated, goddamn it!) coffee shop in honolulu. It comes to you as i wait for someone to return with a car and then take me to a different food selling type place. As such, this post may end abruptly. Oh the spontaneity!
What is going on lately, you ask? Not much, I answer. On the short walk from the bus stop to my current location, I began to think about my frame of mind when iʻm working my ass off for my money (which is different and better than working my ass for my money) and when iʻm lolly gagging (which sounds like a dirty dirty past time) about. Its much easier to think that the world is made of rainbows and...oh god. the ride is here.
this will be continued and expanded at a later date.